To live & to learn..n to experience

"Searching for the thrill of it, thrill of it...say that its love but to me its looking counterfeit, i get done with one and move right on to another b*&#@$.." -mr.taylor gang himself (Wiz khalifa) for u lames

Haha this sad lil truth for most guys right, but there is one in particular that i know that wears this crown well....you all may know have seen him,maybe freinds or partnas wit um ;0

I once met a guy who was one of the finest things to me, (a true BMW)..

somewhat rare to stumble upon (an unlikely pair we once were n still are)

no one would ever really know/ understand hell i neva did n still dont till this day

But that BMW to me turned into a 98 toyota corrola..unfortunatley

He had it all..and in some ways he still does:

Looks, game, swagger, appeal, a lil cash?, real confident, talented individual

but at times a lil too confident for his own good

From the many things i hear, he was once a real good man for "one" girl,

but now hes that man not just for that "one" but for many girls as well

I'd be lying if i said some of his qualities didnt impress me, they did

just not all of them, i couldve lived w/o a few

I knew he wasnt totally good, and that i would never really

get what i wanted from it or much less say everything i wanted to

.. but come on guys will be guys

and you know what your getting into if you so choose to with certain ones

I made a big girl decision which inturn had big girl consequences

Regret,nope everything is a learning experience to me

I ignored my conscience for a sec n let my curiosity

become the death of me for a moment.....

Did i think i was special. at the time? i did..but i knew

if i truely was things would be totally different

So was i just "another B&%*@$?"

No matter how i let myself fall a bit...i tried to keep a guard up as well

Never let on to my true feelings n prolly never will

Some things are better left unsaid..especially when you

know its a loss cause

I can only hope that his past, present, and future preys

are as smart and keep their guard up..You gotta be on

your A game and know what your dealing with, if not

get out the game now bc thats really all it is sweetheart

i really hate to tell you..get engulfed in a river of lies and

drown in a sea of false promises that will never become true

life boats to save your ass

Why deny it..he never did

I heard things about new chicks n the "one"

after it all,, hell i still do but are you going to do

Move on..n thats exactly what i did

Theres so much that i could say

about the situation n what happened

with the one; things i know

he doesnt know that i know

about the "one" n the others

but putting ppl on blast is not my

overall objective or goal in this

blog, its just to let out what

i cant normally get out

to certain indiviauls

n let my true thoughts take control

But just know that i know a lot

more than i appear to

always two steps ahead

But on the flip side:

I kinda stumbled into sumthn new

sumthn i was inneed of sumthn i

deserved after many failed attempts of wondering n asking y me?..

Im'still scared and a lil

guarded but willing to learn and let

go n finally be happy:)

This relationship is like no other

unique in its own weird funny n twisted way

. bc i actually feel special this time

no lies, no games, no confusion, no false hope

Its right there waiting for me to reach out and

take it and run with it~

A happy ending after all???